Post by Anonymous on May 26, 2015 9:55:33 GMT
I've always identified as a cis female because that's what my parents have always told me. They're quite transphobic so I had never even heard of anything other than the binary before joining Tumblr. (also hence I'm doing this anon as they can see my emails and will ask if I sign up)
Ever since I was little I remember asking my mother why I can't be a boy and I always wanted to be like my brother. My mother always stomped it out with "but you're my little girl" and so I stopped asking because that's what good little children do. I grew up as quite a tomboy, don't like dresses, always wearing trainers etc. and thought that that was what I'd wanted all along. By time puberty came around (quite early too) I was really upset about it but I never understood why. A few times I remember rolling up toilet roll as (I didn't know it then) a makeshift packer of sorts just to see how it felt.
In my teenage years I thought it had just been a phase and my style was just androgynous. I'm 17 now and I guess I still do, but over the last month or so I've been feeling dysphoria, especially over my boobs but also about my genitals. Then again at the same time I feel like I don't want a vagina but also don't want a penis. It just feels like there's something wrong with my body, like my boobs shouldn't be there for some reason but I don't know why.
Does anybody have any advice? Is this normal? Whenever I see people talking about dysphoria it always seems to be that they definitely physically want the 'opposite' as it were (I know it's not a binary but I don't know another way to say it, sorry). I've been seeing if using a binder would feel better by tying leggings around my chest, as, due to my parents, I can't get one until I'm not living at home anymore. Does anyone know any better way to make a makeshift binder out of everyday stuff?
This is so long, but thanks for reading
Ever since I was little I remember asking my mother why I can't be a boy and I always wanted to be like my brother. My mother always stomped it out with "but you're my little girl" and so I stopped asking because that's what good little children do. I grew up as quite a tomboy, don't like dresses, always wearing trainers etc. and thought that that was what I'd wanted all along. By time puberty came around (quite early too) I was really upset about it but I never understood why. A few times I remember rolling up toilet roll as (I didn't know it then) a makeshift packer of sorts just to see how it felt.
In my teenage years I thought it had just been a phase and my style was just androgynous. I'm 17 now and I guess I still do, but over the last month or so I've been feeling dysphoria, especially over my boobs but also about my genitals. Then again at the same time I feel like I don't want a vagina but also don't want a penis. It just feels like there's something wrong with my body, like my boobs shouldn't be there for some reason but I don't know why.
Does anybody have any advice? Is this normal? Whenever I see people talking about dysphoria it always seems to be that they definitely physically want the 'opposite' as it were (I know it's not a binary but I don't know another way to say it, sorry). I've been seeing if using a binder would feel better by tying leggings around my chest, as, due to my parents, I can't get one until I'm not living at home anymore. Does anyone know any better way to make a makeshift binder out of everyday stuff?
This is so long, but thanks for reading
