Post by nicthedic on May 7, 2015 22:17:40 GMT
So I just need to release and here is where I shall do it XD
Lately I have been feeling like more garbage than usual. Recently my best friend, and one of the few people in my life that I really felt I could talk to about my gender and all the confusing feelings with it, has moved almost 2 hours away and he doesn't have a car so he has to rely on his room mate for rides and that hasn't on a very regular basis. He never seems to want to message me or really talk and it is killing me.
Then there was the guy I was dating. I was going to go to prom and well he asked two other girls for nudes, one of which was his ex girlfriend, who he blocked on face book at my house and went behind my back and unblocked her. Then he lied to me about it and tried to make it seem like an accident and a huge misunderstanding. My close friend ended up telling me the whole truth because one of the females who sent nudes and the ex boyfriend both showed her the conversation and she tells me all about this. When I confront the ex boyfriend he not only confesses about the pictures, but then tells me he only did it because he thought I was cheating on him (I told him I was going to a near by town to see my sister but really I was seeing the best friend mentioned above but that was only because I knew how much he worries and everything with the best friend was innocent, we didn't even cuddle). But even if I was cheating on him it doesn't make what he did right. He doesn't seem to understand that he really hurt me. It seems like he thinks that if he says he would take it back in a heart beat it will make everything okay. I was obviously very crushed hearing about him cheating on me and he doesn't seem to understand.
Finally about a month after the whole cheating fiasco I decide that I am ready to try and move on so I ask out this guy I have liked for a while and he says yes. We are both fairly recently out of relationships but we have liked each other for awhile but it just seems like he isn't that into anything we do. I am like his 3rd real girlfriend so I can understand his apprehension but he will make jokes about wanting oral but as soon as I try to give him more than a peck on the lips he tenses up as if he doesn't like it. He claims everything is fine so I don't know if he really doesn't want to move that fast, if he is just a bad kisser or if I am doing something wrong.
*takes a deep breath and sighs* okay I am done.
Lately I have been feeling like more garbage than usual. Recently my best friend, and one of the few people in my life that I really felt I could talk to about my gender and all the confusing feelings with it, has moved almost 2 hours away and he doesn't have a car so he has to rely on his room mate for rides and that hasn't on a very regular basis. He never seems to want to message me or really talk and it is killing me.
Then there was the guy I was dating. I was going to go to prom and well he asked two other girls for nudes, one of which was his ex girlfriend, who he blocked on face book at my house and went behind my back and unblocked her. Then he lied to me about it and tried to make it seem like an accident and a huge misunderstanding. My close friend ended up telling me the whole truth because one of the females who sent nudes and the ex boyfriend both showed her the conversation and she tells me all about this. When I confront the ex boyfriend he not only confesses about the pictures, but then tells me he only did it because he thought I was cheating on him (I told him I was going to a near by town to see my sister but really I was seeing the best friend mentioned above but that was only because I knew how much he worries and everything with the best friend was innocent, we didn't even cuddle). But even if I was cheating on him it doesn't make what he did right. He doesn't seem to understand that he really hurt me. It seems like he thinks that if he says he would take it back in a heart beat it will make everything okay. I was obviously very crushed hearing about him cheating on me and he doesn't seem to understand.
Finally about a month after the whole cheating fiasco I decide that I am ready to try and move on so I ask out this guy I have liked for a while and he says yes. We are both fairly recently out of relationships but we have liked each other for awhile but it just seems like he isn't that into anything we do. I am like his 3rd real girlfriend so I can understand his apprehension but he will make jokes about wanting oral but as soon as I try to give him more than a peck on the lips he tenses up as if he doesn't like it. He claims everything is fine so I don't know if he really doesn't want to move that fast, if he is just a bad kisser or if I am doing something wrong.
*takes a deep breath and sighs* okay I am done.
