Post by lostinnarnia on Apr 21, 2015 18:56:41 GMT
Hey guys, I'm a cis male who has been struggling for a long time with what I like. To make matters worse, I have a lot of anxiety, depression, and suffer from OCD, so it makes it very difficult to get a grasp on what my sexuality truly is.
I seem to go back and forth between guys and girls, but not in a way that my bisexual friends can relate to. There will be days where I am convinced I am straight and days where I am convinced I'm gay. Most of my bi or pan friends like multiple genders at once, but I've never experienced that. What's even more confusing is that the "gay" days (lol sounds like a bad comedy) are considerably more fun than the "straight" days and are decidely more interestng erm...sexually.
I hope this is not too much information, but it illustrates my situation: I have MUCH more of a sex drive when I am thinking gay thoughts, as opposed to thoughts about girls, which are thoughts that are SOOOO boring.
However, I get along very well with girls and feel attached to them romantically....or at least I think I do. I recognize when girls are attractive physically, but I shy away from doing this with guys (at least in public). I've never had a successful relationship with a girl and never have had a relationship with a guy.
I think part of my problem is anxiety about being gay, but at the same time, I am conflicted because I admittedly love the idea of being gay (especially since I find men vastly more interesting sexually).
I think I may be gay, but I feel guilty for even thinking that, and often I will realize that "I am gay", and then dismiss it later as being a side effect of being horny. (I realize that thinking you are gay is hardly ever a "side effect" of anything, but this typifies my illogical thinking caused by excessive anxiety and self-doubt). I know no one can tell me what I am, but even an opinion would help. Thanks everyone!!!!
--Jeremy
I seem to go back and forth between guys and girls, but not in a way that my bisexual friends can relate to. There will be days where I am convinced I am straight and days where I am convinced I'm gay. Most of my bi or pan friends like multiple genders at once, but I've never experienced that. What's even more confusing is that the "gay" days (lol sounds like a bad comedy) are considerably more fun than the "straight" days and are decidely more interestng erm...sexually.
I hope this is not too much information, but it illustrates my situation: I have MUCH more of a sex drive when I am thinking gay thoughts, as opposed to thoughts about girls, which are thoughts that are SOOOO boring.
However, I get along very well with girls and feel attached to them romantically....or at least I think I do. I recognize when girls are attractive physically, but I shy away from doing this with guys (at least in public). I've never had a successful relationship with a girl and never have had a relationship with a guy.
I think part of my problem is anxiety about being gay, but at the same time, I am conflicted because I admittedly love the idea of being gay (especially since I find men vastly more interesting sexually).
I think I may be gay, but I feel guilty for even thinking that, and often I will realize that "I am gay", and then dismiss it later as being a side effect of being horny. (I realize that thinking you are gay is hardly ever a "side effect" of anything, but this typifies my illogical thinking caused by excessive anxiety and self-doubt). I know no one can tell me what I am, but even an opinion would help. Thanks everyone!!!!
--Jeremy
